I hate myself and everyone else.

On thursday night, there were winds that woke me up every 30 freaken minutes. Seriously, it was ridiculous. I was so tired yet could not sleep whatsoever. By the time i had to wake up for school, i was already pissed the fuck off. I went to shower, thinking about how to strategize my whole long day. Right when i get out of the shower, i get an email that all classes are cancelled due to hazardous wind condition and blackouts. What the fuck, bro. Maybe i’m an idiot/ nerd for feeling and thinking this way, but i was angrier to find this out. I made myself super awake by showering and everything, i wanted to go to Spanish since we have a test on Monday, and i wanted to find the test result for my history class. What a waste of my morning for a few hours waking up extremely early.

Then, i realize the aftermath of the wind yesterday. In west covina, there’s not much damage to be honest. There are few signs broken down, but they were pretty flimsy stupid signs. Some street lights were out of power; okay, when does that shit never happen when there’s blackouts? Oh yeah, it was weird that my sister’s house did not have electricity even though she lives within five minutes away from me and we have electricity.

Anyways, i went to Monrovia, and holy shit. That place got destroyed. When i was about to exit, there were so many debris within the 210. I exit, and i see a pile of freaken trees on the damn street. I totally freaked out, and my mouth dropped in horror. I kept driving, and it was becoming worse; i had to avoid so many trees on the streets. There were electricity on some streets, so i assumed deven would have electricity. UHM NOPE. I was so annoyed at the fact we had 100000000 candles in his room yet it was not equivalent to the brightness of a damn tiny lamp we use in his room. Ridiculous. We spent hours sitting in his room; i just watched him doing his homework in the dark as i gave up. It was scarier when we left his house for dinner, and there were absolutely no street lights. It was pitch black and scared the shit out of me! 

I really hate myself for loving electricity and technology. I told deven that if the world had a global blackout, i’m sure more than half of the population of the world will kill themselves. I was afraid to use my phone since i was running out of battery. I could not be productive at all. It sucked to see and hear a lot of shit happening to people. It just sucks because those type of wind that we experienced was beyond unexpected; many news outlet compared the wind to “hurricane-like” wind. California is more likely to be prepared for earthquake than “hurricane-like” wind! It just sucks to see the aftermath and realize that we’re so vulnerable to so many things. Deven told me that he saw a metal bar about to fall off from a freeway sign. WHAT?! I would shit in my pants if i saw that.

What a waste of a day.